Sunday, June 3, 2012

Meet Harris Carter :)

Harris Carter was born on March 2, 2012 and he his the love our lives. Just like while he was in utero, hes a pretty chill baby. Look at that face
Yesterday he turned 3 months old, and these three months have been the best thus far. Sure a baby brings changes into a lifestyle or marriage and while they maybe hard at first its for the better.
(please dont mind my messy coffee table)


Saturday, February 4, 2012

a year(ish) ago today....

Last year on Superbowl Sunday, I watched my beloved Steelers get the beatdown from the Packers. My inlaws had a huge superbowl party, so E and I went there. The superbowl was on Febuary 6th, and my birthday being the next day the 7th, and with the tragic game and all I decided to indulge in some wine, bosnian smoked meats and for dessert baklava and absinthe. I had no year or idea how the year was going to go.
So I wanted to do a little review, since I spent 3/4ths of the last year pregnant, and I want to always remember this amazing time in our life.



I saw this on it’s all happening and decided it would be fun to do this year and maybe in years to come too.



1. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before? Alot! Ran a 5K, went to Mexico, and carried a baby.



2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I did well and hope to do well this year with my goals.


3. Did anyone close to you have a child? Well....we got pregnant :)



4. Did anyone close to you die? No Thank God.


5. Where did you travel? Actually we went a few places this year. Mexico, Detroit, New York City and Harrisburg.



6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011? I want to see my family more, and try to be more relaxed.


7. What dates from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory? I have a long list.
March 10th - deciding to run a 5K
June 25th - running said 5k
June 26th  to July 2nd - Mexico
July 5th - learning we were expecting.
October 10th - finding out we were having a boy.
Nov 25th - our 5 year wedding anniversary. It was just us, low key and perfect. We had really yummy leftovers and watched Christmas movies.


8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Getting pregnant, Running my 5k and being recognized at work.



9. What was your biggest failure? I didnt do quite as well in some areas that I thought I would.


10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Nope.


11. What was the best thing you bought? The materials to re do our bathroom.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? My husband, hes been my rock.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? I can be douchey at times. and Kim Kardashian.

17.What song will always remind you of 2011? Moves like Jagger
18. Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier or sadder?b) thinner or fatter? c) richer or poorer?



a) happier



b) fatter - 36 weeks pregnant here!


c) richer ( thank god!)


17. What do you wish you’d done more of? Celebrated the Holidays more.



18. What do you wish you’d done less of? Complain.


19. Did you fall in love in 2011? Yes, I fell inlove with the baby in my belly and my husband all over again.

20.  Favorite TV show?  I have a few - True Blood, Gossip Girl, Walking Dead, Dexter, Homeland and almost anything on Bravo.



21. What was the best book you read? The Help!


22. What was your greatest musical discovery?  I re-discovered the beatles of the later years.





23. What was your favorite film of this year?  Id say the Girl with the dragon tattoo,


24. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? Turned 28 and I was at work, morning the loss of the Steelers. .



25.. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011? My style was at a stand still. I was trying to make what I have work with my growing belly and I did. Im looking forward ( and currently saving ) to do a big wardrobe hall this spring. New after baby body - which will be a work in progress and returning to work as a working mom and turning 29....kind of excited to see my look evolve.


26. What kept you sane? My husband and xanax pre baby.


27. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Kate Middleton. Love. and Oprah Winfrey.


28.. What political issue stirred you the most? Nothing really stirred me per se.
29. Who was the best new person you met? Mmmm. I have a new favorite co-worker.


30. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in the past  year: Ive learned that you only live once, and that you should try to live your best life. And try to see things the way others are seeing them. Be kind. Love too. Live in the moment, and while you cant control what happens, you can control how you act.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

2012 Resolutions

This year, is going to be one of the biggest years of my life. Our baby boy is due March 4th 2012, so our lives are going to change drastically as we become parents. Its so exciting but unnerving in away because I have no control over the year to come, or how labor will go down. So all I can do is prepare, prep, pray and handle the way I react to things. I do have health, marriage, personal goals also.  So here goes:

1. Be a good Mother.I don't know what this means exactly. I know I will be loving and a good caretaker. I hope that I do not get caught up in the exhaustion, frustration, anxiety...I know some of its not avoidable, but I want to the best that I can to stay in the moment.
2. Keep running and doing yoga.  Last year I trained for the 5k and it was one of the most amazing experiences in my life. That along with hot yoga really made me push my body and I was surprised at what I was capable of. Considering that I will  have a considerable amount of weight to lose after the baby is born, and that I want to use exercise as a way to keep my anxiety in check, this is very important to me. At some point Id like to work with a trainer, but for right now with all the transitions coming, I know I can handle the running and yoga so that's a good start for me.
3. Get a handle on my anxiety. Ugh. I have an anxiety disorder. Ive managed in the past with therapy, exercising and meds but going further in this pregnancy my panic attacks are getting more frequent. Will labor be okay? Will I fall on ice? Is it really the end of the world this year? Will my marriage stay intact? Will I be able to maintain my career? We we able to adjust well to our new budget and handle our finances with the baby?  My mind just races and races, and then the panic attacks happen :( Like I said earlier. There are things that I can control, and things that I cant. So I really have to remember that sometimes.
4. Continue to make strides in my career. Ive come so far in the past few years, and I'm so grateful. I love that Ive come so far and even received recognition twice in the past few  years. Very rewarding. There are some specific goals that I have in mind and hoping to achieve them.
5. Make amends. There are somethings that didn't turn out quite the way I had planned or hoped for. I think my anxiety had some hand in this. I'm not blaming anyone but myself...so I plan to make amends and set somethings right. I hope one day to blog about it.

Wow. Those were heavy. Honest. Extremely honest.

Now maybe for some fun goals for the year?

6. I love cooking, and  I don't do it enough, so Id like to get in the habit of trying one new recipe a week. Id also like to learn to make some more traditional Italian dishes ( my ethniticty) and some Balkan dishes that my H enjoys.
7. Be diligent with manicures and pedicures. I love a good mani and pedi and while its not an issue of cost or time, its really an issue of maintenance. I cannot stand chipped nail polish. So while this goal will be harder with all the diaper changes coming ( did I ever mention I never changed a diaper?) I would like to maintain some pretty nails.
8. Revamp my style. Wearing maternity clothes these last few months and all the changes my body will be going through, I'm wondering how my old clothes will fit. So I'm excited for the hauls to come and figuring out where I want to take my style.

So here's to the New Year. I cannot control fate (I believe in fate) or what you throw my way. But I can control how I respond and react. And I plan to do so with grace, dignity, humility and style.
Cheers to you 2012.